Shell-doms?

     What in the world are Shell-doms?  Well they are random Shell thoughts!  It makes sense to me so let's go with it.

     I've been slowly waking up to the fact I have not been walking in my faith.  Don't get me wrong, faith is what I have truck loads of.  I believe He is who He says He is.  I believe He can do what He says He can do.  All these things come easy to me...where I get lost is how to walk in my faith.

     I feel I have been tested for quiet a few years now.  I allow Him to come into my life and then I'd let Him go.  It was easy to carry on with my regular life than to figure out how to exactly walk with Him in it.  It doesn't make sense sometimes but it is how I felt and until recently, I still felt this way.  I can't ignore the knocking that continues to grow louder and louder each passing month. 

     I have started my second bible study.  Yes, I am now almost 44 years old and just now am I'm trying to learn about God.  It was easy as a kid, you go to church with your parents. Sunday school was the best, you learned all the great stories of the Bible.  Children stories of course but it was how I first learned of Him.

     I soon turned into a young adult and left home.  I didn't return to church for the longest time.  It wasn't until I was married and looking at changing my religion with 2 children of my own did I return to a church.  

     It wasn't the same though.  I loved being a Southern Missionary Baptist girl!  I loved the church, the people, the preaching, the message...just everything.  I stopped going and tried to find a Baptist church.  I found one but it just never really clicked for me.

     After several years and a divorce I returned to my home.  My home.  It felt so good to be back home.  I returned by myself.  My daughter went to college and my son stayed behind with my ex-husband.  Hard to make it through the days but I have somehow made it through.  I feel I had a little help from Him.  The tugging soon began.

     I won't go into all the details that got me to this point.  The most recent really WOKE me up.  It really doesn't matter what or how I got here, it's just important that now I am here.  I am here and ready to learn and share what I feel.  I am not a person who knows much but I am willing to just dive in.  And I am diving head first right now!  It feels good and it feels right!  

     Come along and listen to my journey.  I don't know where it will lead me other than closer to Him.  And that's not a bad thing at all!   God bless and have a wonderful day!